MiseryOnlyWhispers

@ daydreamer..im sorry

if shed ever get out i suppose she could...at least just recently ive been able to talk to her but only after puting her in the closet rather than the garage...she still has never responded...lol i feel so phsycotic...i never look her in the eye...why do i feel like such a faliure when it comes to her?

no worries here kezzie...we all need slack n give slack cya round

Does she always have to be so difficult? Lil girl where are you? I’m calling out your name Rachy? Rachy? Rachy? Make a sound for me please So I know where you are ****Phew**** There you are Come out of that closet now He’s gone We’ve grown up, you missed it I’m sorry your childhood is totally over Let me get this pile of heavy clothes off you You were always so smart for hiding here ****smile**** Don’t look at me so scared We’re big girls now Get up and lets go Come with me to our life Its ok no ones here now They’ve left all left This house is empty Abandoned of the past

oops

this is frustrating

that was such an accident i didnt realise it was posting so many times

shes still trapped...i wish shed come to me so we can relive moments in time like kelli clarkson in that video

i searched the world over to find a picture...my parents seem to have lost most of them...i have an exact image of me in my head...i feel like its the exact moment when my world was abruptly stolen...when i have dreams or visions or flashbacks i always seem to see myself in this exact moment even though my abuse took place over a period of years...what makes me sad is that i know its the exact moment when i left a lil girl behind to deal with everything on her own...she was lonely-petrefied-sad...and when i left her ANGRY...but i did it...i left her right there to fend for herself...it feels l

nice to meet ya!

yes she is always me exactly...in fact i have such a real picture of her in my head its not even a picture...its like reality...it feels exactly like it did back then only its today and im seeing myself...looking breathing frightened sad then she silently stares at me and she so so angry...shes never once talked to me and i cant talk to her...but when her glassy hazel eyes look my way they look so clear and empty i can see her soul and its filled with hellish anger

welcome elle

if she is me and i was her then why do we seem so different yet exactly the same? i feel like i know her but then again i musnt know her at all when i was 3 or 4 i learned to disappear...i feel like i left her there...shes stuck on the day that i left her(every clear picture in my head between the ages of 3 and 7 im sitting on a dirty dryer or standing in front of it in a very disgusting garage...and one when i was standing in front of a tree but i think that might be because ive seen a picture of that)...i had to though i was too weak to get out...she hates me for that...cant she understand.

hi there...i hope you find strength and courage here too

glad yer here

were glad to have you

hi there!

howdy!!!

hi silent star

hi

glad you came

shes been angry at me for 29 years...she hates me and she wont respond to me...well i suppose her stare is a response but its the only response ive ever gotten from her...im reaching the end of my rope and im scared to death...im really very sorry to her and i hate being mean...but i need some sort of response...i fear shes already dead...she wasnt supposed to leave me here Why To the little girl inside of me Why do you see me so The angry look inside your eyes Chills me to my bone Your stare paralyses me I cant speak or move I wish that I could rescue you Cant you tell me what to do

glad youre here as for remembering...i dont think you can MAKE yourself...just relax and be open to the memories...its hard but it helps...lol so ive heard...i have yet to reach that point myself...most days i just wish there was a magic way for it to dissapear

glad you found this place...im kinda new here too...have fun looking around...i hope it helps you out

hugs hugs hugs @ cat