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@Maya20 welcome to after silence. We are glad you found us and we look forward to getting to know you Nothing that happened was your fault. You ARE a survivor! sam

@littleheartsmile welcome to AS. I think you've stumbled upon a place that can be of much help to you. There are forums here about mental health, inlcuding PTSD info so that may have some advice/ will help you feel less alone in your struggles with your diagnosis. my name is sam and my favorite color is purple

what a wonderful brother you have. good luck with speaking to your family

anytime @AllyHatter

@Survive4 hello Heather, welcome to After Silence. This is a nice place to be for support during your healing journey. I am sorry you have pain that brought you here, but we are all happy you found us. You are not alone with things coming back to haunt you; there are many of us going through this very thing right now. I am one of them my name is sam, its nice to meet you.

@Dae Welcome! This a lovely place to seek support its nice to meet you, and we look forward to getting to know you sam

@AllyHatter your father sounds like a very loving, strong man. We all have flaws. We all have ideals people don’t agree with. He was from a different time I am sure. His ideals seem very traditional and I see that a lot with older men. They just aren’t very open minded. I am so sorry you are feeling depressed /: You should not feel like a bad daughter though. Things happen to us that we cannot control. It makes me sad you believe you can’t open up to him honestly about so much... I wish people could see the blame lies on the person who committed the violation- not us who were hurt. It is

@Regenboog Hello and welcome! It is nice to meet you. I hope this place can help you on your healing journey My name is Sam, I am 28.I also find singing very therapeutic. I am a mom to two crazy little rascals who light up my life.

@rj1130 absolutely, anytime!

@rj1130 I can imagine it isn’t fair the things we have to deal with after going through something like this. To have to put healing on hold to fight against the people who hurt us in the first place. To tell other people the things that were done to us, traumatizing ourselves all over again. It is just such a challenge- and in that challenge there will be bad days, but you are strong and we will all be here for you on those bad days! sitting with you if ok sam

@rj1130 you are so strong. I admire your ability to confront this. I also really admire you being there for another person your attacker victimized. None of this is ever easy. Some of the time we are so blinded by the trauma we don’t even know what we should do and when. im so glad you found this site though. I hope it can help you during your healing process. I also hope the other woman he hurt receives some help for what she went through /: sam

@rj1130 hello and welcome. I am so sorry for the pain that brought you here, but you found a very supportive place full of very helpful people. There are many people here with similar stories. I actually have a similar experience. I was attacked and went home and showered immediately after. Felt like I had no chance after that but I wouldn’t change trying to tell people who he was/ is. Please don’t be sorry about sharing. It was not too much at all. sitting with you if okay? sam

@MeganMe hello and welcome! It’s lovely to meet you I hope you find this place to be as beneficial to your healing process as most of us do here! sam

Hello @MissTattoo. I’m sorry you were violated by someone you were supposed to be able to trust /: I can relate to that.. I think it’s great you were able to send in your story though! That’s a start to being able to admit what happened. I know the fears of opening up about these things too. Being scared they will do something out of anger and malice; but you were hurt by him. He may see it and be mad but he also chose to do what he did. He was wrong. I know the feelings you are struggling with don’t just go away no matter what anyone says, but know you are not alone with your feelings. he

Hi @AutumnLeaves8790! I’m Also from the Midwest in the US! This site is really supportive and full of a lot of amazing people who are all also struggling with the same things. We are so glad you found us. I hope this site can be helpful for you on your healing path. sam

@enp welcome! I think you came to the right place for support a lot of us are dealing with this very thing at the moment. I hope being here can help you with your healing process sam

Hello @Selma! So glad you found us. Looking forward to getting to know you sam

You were right; nobody cares

@Still_confused I’m sorry you had those reactions from people /: it can be very numbing and even more traumatic when people are insensitive and don’t want to hear what you have to say. Sitting with you if ok sam

@AnnaF welcome to after silence. I’m sorry things are coming back and affecting you again I hope this place can be of help on your healing path. sam

Hello @Mel_Belle and welcome to After Silence. This place really is a wonderful group of supportive, amazing people. I hope you can find the relief you’re looking for here! I know it has definitely helped with my sanity lately, that’s for sure. Looking forward to getting to know you! Sam

Hello @Pidges! Welcome to this wonderful community of survivors everyone here is so welcoming and comforting. I’m so glad you found us! I hope this place can give you some relief from your struggles! Sam

Hello @ddddddd123win! Welcome to after silence I hope you find this place helpful on your path of healing. Sam

Yes it’s a process and more often than not, a long one. We are healing every day. Sam

No not weird at all! Thank you actually. It took weeks of effort and tears and panic attacks and I’m just glad I’m finally done purging it out of me. I can’t speak in therapy either. I can’t seem to speak out loud about what happened. It’s just too much! Too intimidating for me still. I hope you can find the relief you need here. Sitting with you still! Sam