Hi there.
Um... I don't know quite what to say here - I never have been good at introductions.
My name's Nikki, I'm 19, and something happened to me when I was a very small child. The wound started healing when I met my current girlfriend, and then when I read a Dorothy Allison book... Things are a lot better than they were before. My girlfriend taught me that I am worth more than I thought, and Dorothy Allison taught me it was not my fault.
I can't explain it, but it feels like a tiny part of a large wound has healed, and it feels like it might continue to become less raw. I'm not sure it can ever completely heal, but being able to get on with my life without the pain crippling me would be worth every second of hard work.
I'm sounding weird here, aren't I?
On to other things... I adore reading, writing, playing the tin whistle, studying, life coaching, fruit, gardening, museums, libraries, theatres, voluntary work and hula hooping, along with many other things. Unfortunately I'm disabled with a neurological diease, which means that I'm not in education or work, and use a wheelchair, but despite these things and being in bed for hours a day, I'm much better than I have been and for that I'm eternally thankful for!
I hope to make some friends here who understand the wounds and healing processes after sexual assault.
Nikki xx