keliz

I just joined here, too...so I can't answer your question about 'how do you live, afterwards'. I don't know how recent your incident was, but mine was less than a month ago, and I don't feel like I"m living my life, I am just creeping along in the dark day to day. Thank god I have a good support system here, or I'd lose my s**t on a daily basis (not that I don't anyway, but I have someone to catch me when I fall, again thank god). I hear people saying that you CAN live again, and can live free and happy, but I have the feeling I will never quite be the same. My sense of security and safe

I say I *think* I'm glad, because I'm so conflicted about thinking about what happened to me and dealing with it, and just trying to stuff it & ignore it so I can get on with my life. Right now I feel completely emotionally out of control, which is not something I have ever been before. The best way I can describe it is I feel like I'm lost in a huge dark maze and I have no hope of finding my way back to where (who) I was. I'm probably not ready to discuss what happened to me, but I do find some comfort in reading the responses to others who are suffering; it gives me hope that when /