littlelaurie

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  1. Looking In A Mirror

    What a great thread! I'm really glad I ventured into this area and read this post--very empowering! Thank you for sharing Laurie
  2. The Inner Child Thread

    What a great thread! I think inner child work is really important to recovery (at least it has been on my path!), and what a great way to share. My inner child often gets scared but loves to be cuddled and do art. Recently my inner child was very mad and had a lot about rage about being abused and not protected. But she's feeling better today. We've been knitting
  3. New

    I've only been around for a few days, but I've found this to be a very supportive environment. Welcome! Laurie
  4. Hi There

    Thank you for the warm welcomes! Jen--I sympathize with the weight gain. I have also struggled with my weight--I think extra weight makes me feel safer and more secure that abuse would not happen again. But I too am ready to lose the weight--you inspire me to work even harder! I have lost about 11 pounds so far, and I hope we can help motivate each other! Laurie
  5. First Timer

    I'm new here also but I thought I'd say hi also! Laurie
  6. Hi There

    Thank you all for the welcome! I'm looking forward to getting to know you better, and I hope we can gain strength from each other! Laurie
  7. Hi There

    Hi, I just found this place a couple days ago, while I was going through the first rough patch I've had in a while. I guess I would say that I am "mostly healed" from my experiences, but although I've dealt with so much of what happened, as life goes on, I am presented with new aspects of what happened to deal with. What I do believe is that you are only faced with what you can deal with at the time, even though at the time you can feel completely overwhelmed and in darkness. When I was just an infant up to two years of age, I was sexually abused by my father. I told my mom as a small child, which prompted my parents to get divorced, and my mom (thank god) got custody. Although I always knew what had happened to me, I managed to push it to the back of my mind for most of my childhood. Mostly the anger that I had at my dad as a child was due to him letting me down in other ways, not dealing with the abuse. I had supervised visitation with my dad until I was 14, and then saw him unsupervised (at that point, I knew he wouldn't do anything because he both knew I would tell). Not until I went to college did I really deal with the abuse--I started having body and emotional flashbacks that had me crying and cowering in the closet. I haven't had any contact with my dad since that point. I got a therapist who was really fabulous, and I worked through all those bad times and made it out the other side (It is possible!) I'm proud to say that I'm now in a healthy relationship with my boyfriend (~1.5 years), one where I am comfortable with sexual experiences (which I was very fearful would cause triggers, etc, but turned out fine). I'm really glad to be in a community of survivors. Being a survivor is not really something I share with people; my family knows from the divorce proceedings, but other than them I've only shared my story with two close friends and my current boyfriend. I think it will be very comforting to be part of a community where people automatically understand a huge part of you. Oh, and my username refers to what I call my inner child, who I've found often needs attention and playtime and cuddles! I wish everyone strength and inner peace. Best, Laurie PS--this little guy is just adorable!