Hell, I am so sorry to hear what you have been through, Ive suffered abuse for a lot of my life I've recently had a breakdown and have now been diagnosed with hypomania bipolar its hard to digest but I am so glad I've finally got an answer as to why I am the way I am. 6 Years after the abuse I suffered when I was 14 I had a breakdown it was the most awful time ever I was just drugged up and left I couldn't stand I couldn't feed myself ect and then they sent me home with only a CPN as support who discharged me a few weeks after.