Hello everyone, I am new to the board, and I am a survivor, though I don't feel like much of one. I have been married 13 years, he knows about the abuse, but not everything, have 3 absolutely wonderful kids.
I was 10/11 when I started being abused by my stepdad. I am now 32. I have found that I have never come to terms with it. My teenage years I spent hiding from it, and in fear. My 20's I spent lying to everyone, and making them believe, I had overcome it. And now Here I am on this board, Full of anger and thinking it is just awful to see so many people in my position, but comforting to finally find a place where people understand. I joined a few days ago, and went straight for the Need to Vent board. My anger was getting the better of me. Because if I release it, no one understands, so I just keep it inside, and that just makes it worse. On that board for the first time in my life I heard someone say, "I understand". I hope I can find a home here, and get the support I so long for. I hope that I can support someone in my shoes, and make a difference in their life as well.
Im not quite to the point of sharing my story, but I hope I get there. I just have a very bad habit of sweeping it back under the rug, and I have gotten no where with that. I want to confront it, and heal.
Thanks for reading.