heyyy,
i'm so sorry you had to go through that and that it even happened.
i felt the very same way that you did, i first posted my story online and this was the first time i ever "told" anyone what had happened. i was also afraid of what my family and friends would think, and i'm sorry that this is preventing you from speaking. but you must take your time and tell people only when you feel ready.
you will find alot of support and love here,
:hug: