I don't really know how to introduce myself. I don't accept myself, so how would I expect you all to accept me for me? I am looking for support here. This is a scary step for me to even come here at all. I was "the big R-word" 3 and 1/2 years ago. I am 25 and in Medical School right now. Life hasn't been "life" since then. I am finding that this is "normal" with most of the posts that I have read. Well, I finally decided to try counseling and tomorrow morning is my third appt. I don't like it because I feel like the counselor is prying and I don't know if I am ready. I think I am ready but my inner "child" says no, no, no...go hide. Know what I mean? My question is this, how do you know its the best thing to do, when I feel like I can handle it on my know, but I know in my heart that I just don't want to face anything because the whole thing scares me? I don't know what I think these days... I just find myself getting less sleep each day, being hypervigilant and scared all of the time. Does anyone feel alone, even though you know others have been through the same thing or worse? Does it get better ever???