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tuliptorn

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  1. tuliptorn

    This cross is too heavy. I just want to stop because I can't take no more. Remember I am weak and show me some mercy. Feed me some crumbs of mercy, something tangible, something. Help me not pick up this blade today. Hope me up or something, please. 

    1. Conqueror8:37

      Conqueror8:37

      Tulip, you are a precious child of God. You are wonderfully and fearfully made and worthy of treating yourself with dignity and love. You are fighting a battle. Take just one breath at a time. One moment, one hour, one smile, one laugh, one tear, one struggle. Don't worry about later. You're here right now in this moment. You can do it.

    2. LuthienTinuviel

      LuthienTinuviel

      :butterfly:

  2. tuliptorn

    I'm still here. Battle won.

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: ,

      glad you won congratulations.

       

      :) 

    2. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      To fight another day. 

      I see you won too. :party:

    3. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Yes :tear: thank u.

      thanks to a member on here they helped me find a article about something I am struggling with and it's got me a little worrying.

  3. tuliptorn

    In a bad place. All week, harder than usual. Need a break badly.  

    1. Irishgal8026

      Irishgal8026

      Sitting with you...

      Have you anyone who is close you can talk to??

      I know you probably don't feel like it, but just a simple I'm not OK message to the right person helps...

       

    2. Painnbroken

      Painnbroken

      Sitting with you dear if ok.  I totally understand a bad place it makes things so much worse.  Safe hugs to you if ok. 

  4. tuliptorn

    Is it me?

    tuliptorn commented on aperson's blog entry in Behind the Wall

    Sitting by you on that decision.
  5. tuliptorn

    Thank God for cats.

    1. limbodante

      limbodante

      Amen and hear hear! *safe hugs and channels some spoons*

    2. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      I agree. I'd be lost without mine.

       

    3. oceonwaves

      oceonwaves

      I totally agree . mine is called Pushkin , 

  6. tuliptorn

    Lord, give Tulip the strength today, puleeeeze!!!

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Sitting with you. :flowers:

    2. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      :hug:

  7. tuliptorn
    Welcome to AS Madison. I hope you supportive friends here like I have.
  8. tuliptorn

    My mother sent me a Mother's Day card. I'm not sure how to take it yet. I'm ashamed to report that my heart leaped of a second. My logic suspects sabotage...

  9. tuliptorn

    I found a moment of contentment today, just a few moments. It felt odd but good. Off in the distance another storm is building, I'm afraid, but I gotta remember I made it through the others. Just going to try to be present for now.

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if okay?

       

      free

  10. tuliptorn

    Body memories have calmed down considerably. I'm grateful for that.

    1. josiel

      josiel

      So glad to hear that! :hug:

    2. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      (((((Free, Josiel)))))

      Doing so much better on that front. Thank you for caring.

    3. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Your always welcome :) ,

      glad to hear your doing better,

      you need only ask for help friend :) .

       

      free :butterfly: 

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  11. tuliptorn

    Hurting big time all day. Make it stop. Silently freaking out.

    1. Field8

      Field8

      Sitting with you if okay. Take safe care of yourself

    2. kat07

      kat07

      So sorry you're hurting. Here to listen 

    3. Painnbroken

      Painnbroken

      Sitting with you and sending gentle hugs :hug:if ok!

      please hang in there take gentle care of yourself. 

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  12. tuliptorn
    Welcome to AS Heatherr. You are not alone. There are good people here. Sometimes I can feel them with me and it helps me stay in the fight. Hope you can find that here.
  13. tuliptorn

    My body is yelling what my mouth cannot. It's been a hard week. 

     

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs if okay? :hug: 

    2. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      Very well said. I feel the same. Sitting with you. 

    3. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      Thank you both. It really socks. :hug:

  14. tuliptorn

    I just want to lay on T's couch and take a dream safe nap.

     

    1. Unikitty

      Unikitty

      what is a dream safe nap?

  15. tuliptorn

    Today has slipped into sadness for me. Maybe cause the cigs are gone.:rasta:

     

    1. LuthienTinuviel

      LuthienTinuviel

      :butterfly::luck:

  16. tuliptorn

    I am here. And so are you.:purpleribbon::candle:

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      The sad irony of not being alone. :( 

    2. snmls

      snmls

      :throb:

    3. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      It is kinda hopeful too in a very odd way. :flowers:

  17. tuliptorn

    I am so confused about what is true or false. I want to break free but my feet are shackled and my wing is broken. 

    1. patriciag

      patriciag

      I feel the first thought in your head is true, before you get the chance to  analyze. just my thought.

    2. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      ((((Patriciag)))) 

      I over think every thing. Hard to stop, but you are right. 

    3. patriciag

      patriciag

      I am so bad at over thinking things. I Have a plan for this or that OH and more than one plan.

       

  18. tuliptorn

    I don't even know who I am anymore, or does it even matter?

    1. Painnbroken

      Painnbroken

      You matter. Sitting with you if ok and safe hugs to you :hug:if ok

    2. limbodante

      limbodante

      You are you. That's who you always are. You get to decide who you want to be and pursue that. You also get to decide for yourself how much it matters. It annoys the hell out of me but the sickening cliche of life being what you make it is largely true. You have to work it out for yourself, but you get to decide a lot of stuff.

    3. patriciag

      patriciag

      :agree2:

      I am not even close to the person that I was years ago. I have learned to have a voice. I like this Patricia so much more. It took awhile to find me.

      You are YOU

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  19. tuliptorn

    I want her to be my mom.

  20. tuliptorn

     This morning I'm feeling a bit lighter. Going to ride the hell out of this wave as long as I can today.:wink:

    1. limbodante

      limbodante

      Woo, surf's up!

    2. Painnbroken

      Painnbroken

      Riding the wave always made me feel a hell a lot better.  

  21. tuliptorn

    There is a new exhibition here at the museum here called Multitude Solitude, that seem to be what's happening to the Tulip tonight.

  22. tuliptorn

    T is going to be out of town starting on Tuesday. I'm whining already.

  23. tuliptorn

    Even when I scream they don't see. :shrug:

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Sometimes people can be blind.

      Sometimes people refuse to see.

      Sometimes people can't admit they can see.

      I hear you. Sitting with you. :hug: if ok. 

    2. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      ((((Mary)))) Thank you.

      Still hurts though.

  24. tuliptorn

    Excited and nervous at same time. 

  25. tuliptorn

    I just want to feel safe. Want you all to feel that too.

    1. snmls

      snmls

      Thanks.  I want you to feel safe too. 

    2. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      Me too :sadang:

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