AmanJo

Thank you John. I will try that, sounds like a good idea and that it will work!

Thank you all for the welcome! I had re-lived what happened earlier today while I was at work. Turned my phone off and I have it off now. I just don't want to be bothered by people today. I'm like the "dr. Phil" to them, they come to me with all their problems. and right now I can't handle that right now, when I'm fighting for myself to come back. I hate the job I have, because a lot of the time you just sit there and do nothing. And those are the times when things come back to me and I re-live everything.

Thank you both. I think I'm ready to tell what happened to me. Because I'm lost right now, and I don't know what to do. I really need some help.

Thank you again for the welcomes. I've only stopped the drinking cause I'm finding it hard to find people to buy for me. I'm scared for when I turn 21 in December. Than I'll be legal to buy it, and yeah.. I'm scared for that. But hopefully by than I'll be over it. I want to be able to trust again, and not be so paranoid. Be able to live again.

Thank you all for the welcomes. It will take me time to come out and say what happened. I just need to get the help I can get, I can't afford to see a counselor, Nor do I have any insurance. So I'm hoping that this will help me. Because I've got a new boyfriend he's great to me and understands what happened to me. And he's willing to take it slow for me. But I just feel bad for him having to deal with me and how I am right now. I've stopped with my worst habits.... Drinking and taking Pills, I've stopped with the pills to the point where I'll take them ONLY if I REALLY need them. The Drink

I'm new here, a friend of a friend gave me the link here. She also had joined. But My name is Amanda, and I'm 20 years old from Minnesota. I joined because I am having a really hard time dealing with what happened to me almost a year now. And this site looks like it could hopefully finally put an end to how I am feeling, and how I deal with things.