[Where Do I Start?]

welcome to AS. we will listen and believe you and try to understand.

willow

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[Hi... New Here (maybe Some Triggers?)]

welcome to AS. im glad it has helped you already.

please dont ever think your story is beyond belief, cos it isnt to us. ok?

willow

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[Hello Im New]

welcome to AS!

talk in ur own time, we will listen, we will believe you, and we will do our best to understand, though we cant guarantee that. lol!

willow

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[Hey]

hey,

im confident that you will find what you couldnt find at the other site here at AS. welcome to our little world!

willow

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[New]

welcome to AS hunni.

dont worry, its scary for all of us at first, but you will soon feel like you belong.

ppl here are wonderful like you could never imagine.

please feel free to post as much or as little and as often and as rarely as you like.

and, if you can, chat is a wonderful way to whiel away the hours you dont thing you can get through.

i hope you find as much comfort in this board as i have.

we love you already!

willow

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[No Autographs Please]

yay!

welcome back heathbar!!

willow

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[New]

welll, youll be glad to ehar you will never be alone again with us.

welcome to AS glad you found us, sorry you needed to.

willow

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[Hey New Shy And Nervous]

welcome to AS!

(((((((((((((((((((((((DeeplyHidden)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

dont worry about being shy, its a common result of the terrors we have been through.

lots of ppl are shy here to start with.

when i first found this site, i found it easier to open up by reading other ppls posts and replying and explaining how i can relate to them.

take a look around, read posts, take your time.

you will soon see that we are all friends here.

no1 will judge you or hurt you, and we will always always believe you, whatever yor story, however much of it you choose tio share and when.

feel free to pm me if you want to talk.

willow

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[Hello, I'm New...]

yup!

not having anyone to talk to, even your best friends, is perfectly normal.

oh, and welcome to the site.

i'm really glad you found us , but really sorry you needed to .

i only have one person in my non-internet life that i can talk to, my bf. he's great. i was very very lucky to find him.

before him i had no1 for 20 years, like you didn't.

i say you didn't rather than you don't, because you do now, cos you have us!

hope you get everything you need out of the site!

oh, i like smilies, can you tell?

lots of love,

willow

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[Incestual Childhood Rape And Abuse]

ok, well, i guess the title pretty much says the main reason why i'm here.

the man involved was my father. my biological father. not my adoptive father or my foster father, or my stepfather, my bio father. somehow that makes it seem worse to some ppl. it does to me.

i'm 20.

i live in south yorkshire, england.

i'm just starting university to do a degree in biomedical science.

i recently realised i'm never going to be free from this hideous past until i tell my relatives about what he did to me.

and this is going to be so incredibly hard for me.

i know i'm going to lose my brother. he thinks our father is perfect.

i'm worrying about how my mum will react, the more i think about it the more i think she already knew. it seems it was too obvious looking back to not know.

i'm having really vivid and warped nightmares and daymares and flashbacks and stuff.

my biology tutor at uni has no sympathy with why i'm a bit out of it, why i struggle with concentrating on things we both know i can do. she says ppl who say they are suffering with depression need to just sort their relationships out.

that is exactly why i'm having to tell them. because i know i need to sort my relationships out, but she basically says ppl like me shouldn't be wasting the time of medical proffessionals and all this.

i know it's crazy but it still upsets me.

i just want to die a lot of the time so i dont have to do the things i have to do.

i guess thats the basic thing with me.

willow

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