Okay, so I'm one week off starting a new job - a permenant one just for a change. And well, I feel like I'm cracking up - I can't cope. This is a nightmare. I rang the out of hours (mental health team) service, but as usual they were worse than useless. In fact they made me feel down right bad about feeling how I am - saying things like 'everyone that can work should work'. Well I think that was my point - I don't know that I can. Not to mention the tiny insy winsy little physical problem of epilepsy and multiple sclerosis. But then hey, why can't I continue to do everything that I am currently doing that is benefitting my recovery once I'm working you know - I won't be mental, emotionally, nor physically exhausted at all. And hey, I'll have money to go out with friends that I make at work - friends that I make at work?? go out?? I have Complex PTSD for Christ's sack - I don't make friends - never have, never will. And even if I did, I live in the back end of nowhere, and can't drive because of the epilepsy, so I wouldn't be going out anywhere. What a self righteous thinks she knows it all twat. Well now I'm just in an extremely bad mood.