It's taken me until today to finally express how I feel about the visit the other day. I had to go for a pelvic ultrasound and mammogram. The pelvic ultrasound was an internal one. She put the camera inside me and kept moving it around...to say it was uncomfortable is the least!!! She said she couldn't find my ovaries so she had to do the outside ultrasound also! She asked why I was having it done and was surprised that I didn't know why. I was so uncomfortable and felt so violated. I don't know if I will ever do it again. I really don't think there was a need for it. I believe in the old adage, if it ain't broke don't fix it!!! After I went through this, they decide to get my mammogram done the same day. I know the lady was just doing her job but it hurt also. I'm really not that big of a baby but I think I was so traumatised that it didn't matter what anyone did, it was going to hurt. I'm just done with all this testing! Just say I'm fine and can get on with my life. I know there are some things I need to do/change and I'm working on them but this stuff is unnecessary. Now I get to stress and worry until Monday when I see the girlie doctor again. I'm just hoping and praying that nothing is found!!! I can't deal with anymore right now. I leave next Friday for Europe and I just want to go and relax and not be worried the whole time.

Sorry for the long rambling....I can't speak it outloud because it is too much for me.

Have a safe day!