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Slowly Dying Lately


deepunderprincess

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This site overlooking peoples posts has been super relatable. i dont want to just throw my whole story out there but you know. no one on here really knows who i am....

You ever like had something bad to you and you know you do the right thing and tell someone and they make you seem crazy.. so after months go by your only resource is for you boyfriend to save you..my story is all sorts of everywhere. when i was about 11 i started crushing on this boy i had class with. we didnt original start dating till about 13-14. we had knowin eachother for about 3 years and we officially become a couple but everyone knew we had always been, in the middle of about 7th grade me and him had sex for the first time and we used protection.. but.. being the first time we dont know what were doing.. i was supposed to get my period by the beginning of the next month and i didnt get it. my first inital response was to ask his mom for help because me and her were close. she bought me the test and it came out positive so now im like 13 and pregnant and i tellhim and he doesnt believe me at first took him actually about a week to consider it. we talked about it and we became closer than ever granite he had his slips when he didnt want anyone else to know. 4 months go by and my belly is definatly getting bigger but my moms busy with work and my stepdad is oblivious to everything. one night while im laying with him in his bed and were watching a movie , i feel this gush like of water or something between my legs and im thinking crap did i just pee, i sat up and felt oddly uncomfortable. i said did i just pee your bed and laughed he said nothing so i turned around and seen the blood stain on his bed and he looked at me and said.. What just happened? i said im not sure get your mom. my stomach started cramping and he jumped out of bed and ran to get his mom. i dropped to the floor in agony. holding my tummy. his mom came back and said we have to get her to the hospital...... i lost my 4 and a half month old baby girl that night. now Amellia Marie is the name that is the most sacred thing to me.. me and him dated for about 3 more years up until last year. we decided it wasn't working anymore. which still hurts now and then because i still have amazing dreams about us 3 being together, i recently started dating somone who is 2 years older than me about 3 months ago. and he knows everything except the dreams part.. latley my mom and stepdad have been fighting quite alot.. hes started acting really sexual towards me.. considering weve never really been close out of 12 years its weird... any really advice or relatable things?

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It wasn't your time yet but don't be discouraged in trying sexual things with your partner.things will get better

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It wasn't your time yet but don't be discouraged in trying sexual things with your partner.things will get better

thanks i hear that alot, it wasnt my time or that was gods way of saying we werent ready.

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It happens a lot more than people realize we just learn to move on or try our best too

it does and the sad part is that its not something everyone just knows. it took alot of courage to tell my boyfriend about her. hes very understanding and always wants to know more

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Wow your really strong to go through something like that. The positive part is that your ex boyfriend stayed by yourside.

I'm praying for you to have strength throughout your journey.

I'm concerned about things with your step dad.... I don't really know what to say... but.... gosh...

i don't like the fact that he's acting sexual towards you.

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Wow your really strong to go through something like that. The positive part is that your ex boyfriend stayed by yourside.

I'm praying for you to have strength throughout your journey.

I'm concerned about things with your step dad.... I don't really know what to say... but.... gosh...

i don't like the fact that he's acting sexual towards you.

it is yeah. it was and is still definitely hard to relive it... thank you so much.. yeah i dont like it either, specially since hes someone im suppose to trust... i am 16 and have 2 years left till i can move out and get away without ruining a family...

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