Sometimes I feel like I am on top of the world and that I am not upset or hurt or feeling anything negative about what happened to me.
Sometimes I feel like I can't even get out of bed in the morning. Can't put on clothes or even stand up.
Sometimes I can't sleep at night. Sometimes I can't bear to be touched by my husband.
Sometimes I feel like I absolutely HAVE to be touched by my husband.
Like I an't feel okay about anything particularly out relationship unless we are being intimate.
I know rationally those days where I crave intimacy that I don't really need it.
That it doesn't change anything for the better or for the worse in regards to us.
But I can't turn it off.