Feeling Lost
I'm struggling tonight. Sometimes I have to play through a therapy session in my head where I'm telling my story over and over again to try to find peace. Tonight is one of those nights but for some reason the memories of how I felt during that time feels hazy as if it didn't happen the way I remember it. I know that isn't right since I remember the physical aspect of it clearly and I definitely have a lot of emotional trauma. I spent so many years telling myself it's ok that I was ok with it that I'm now questioning the way I felt during that period of my life. Was I really ok with it? If so why does it make me feel so dirty and sick? Am i really a survivor? I've never felt so lost or alone in my life than I feel tonight. I'm hoping that writing about it will help me find peace for at least the night. maybe if I can write about my experiences in detail it will help me. I'll fight that battle another night
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