it is so hard not to give up. i need to be here for my family and friends but i'm just so tired. my husband is so wonderful and caring. my best friend and her son have been solid for me for so many years and need me now and i shouldnt run away now when they need me. the animals all need me because there is no one else. i am at peace with not making it to the finish line with everyone else i just have obligations to meet for as long as i can.

so many times in the past i have told women when you feel lost, small and overwhelmed, become part of something bigger that you want to be given to you. so, tonight i gave and it was given back and i feel better and so does the person that needed it too.