Losing my best friend has caused me to rethink my behaviours, I'm being more positive. Over the past several years, I've been pushing myself to try new things and leave my comfort zone. Last night was the biggest thing I've ever done......I met someone and had a great night with him. I did things I haven't done in a very long time. The only problem was he knew that I've been hurt. He allowed me to say no to anything I didn't want to do. Ja, I know I was so lucky to find him and for him to be as understanding as he was. The best is we have no expectations and don't want a relationship, that said he was a complete gentleman and didn't push me. For the first time in my life, I had someone care about how I felt and he wasn't concerned about his happiness only. It was nice and fun. We plan to meet up a few more times before he leaves and I'm so ok with this that it scares me. Can I consider this a breakthrough? I hope so and I really hope this allows me to let go of so much of my past. Have a great night!