vacation is hard for me. too much free time to be with who i am. hubby and i have talked about all the things we want to do and some of that is spending time together. i wish i could tell him all the things that are going through my head but then he would blame himself and i would just have to put more energy into taking care of him during all this. its easier to keep it to myself and just deal with it. fake it til you make it is gong to be the motto of the week. our anniversary is thursday and i want it to be as happy for him as i can make it. he deserves it. he is a wonderful man that does what he can to take care of me in every way. he is my rock. i love him. today, chores and just making our home more comfortable for us.