My name is Andi, one of Copper's Insiders. I know the rules of After Silence, and I will do my utmost to heed them. In this post I briefly mention SI.
I have been around for a while, but deep Inside. I handed the first T the body went to...or at least the first who was worth the ink on her diploma. So it makes perfect sense to me (and my sense of balance) that I first resurface on the way to Aqua's.
I like Aqua. We (me and Copper mostly) raised some very serious questions to her, and got some solid answers. It's not often that you can get a real, honest, answer out of a therapist, especially when you bring up issues of diagnosis and professionalism. It's nice to see a T who isn't afraid of our intelligence. It's even nicer to work with a T who makes it clear that we can push all we want...she'll push right back!
I was able to give her some background, details of things that the others had skimmed over. Couple of names, couple of hard-to-ignore facts.
And she talked about how every single person who has sat on my side of the desk has questioned her sanity. Judging from some Internal reaction, today was the most brutally honest about that subject that Copper has ever been with any T.
On the downside, this makes two strong, dominant adults in the System who have SI issues. (Skye does too, but while hitting qualifies, when I say SI, I almost always mean cutting.) She got through Thanksgiving on stubbornness and guts...between the two of us, things are likely to get...interesting.
Oh well. It is what it is, and we are what we are.