I really don't see the point anymore.

I lost two friends recently -- one because she walked away and the other because she VICIOUSLY turned on me out of nowhere (not that she'll take responsibility for that).

In addition:

I've lost both of my cats

my car

my entire family

and another friend who decided I was too "immature" to deal with (sorry if you don't like the littles bit*h)

I just don't see the point of putting myself out there anymore, of meeting anyone else EVER when they're just gonna decide I'm a piece of shit and walk away.

Even my idols want nothing to do with me.

Why bother? Why do i fucking bother to wake up in the morning?