Systeminthesky

Hi Julia

I am so sorry that those doctors, therapists, social workers, nurses etc did not believe you when you were telling your story to them. I can empathize with you on that. When I was young, I told a little bit of what happened to me and I was not believed. It was bad growing up knowing that some person did bad things to you and you were so alone and you had to keep it secret. Eventually that caused me to be ill with depression and eventually PTSD.

Even now, I know a lot of people do not believe me when I say I was hurt as a child. I still am being hurt from people because of my fears stemming from this. It has caused me to go to therapist to therapist trying to resolve what happened to me was not my fault. I still believe that in part it was, but this is not about me, its about you.

I am happy that Lucy found such a wonderful T, I finally found the perfect T for me too and its nice that he is willing to go through all those things that I went through and hopefully I can heal from it.

Trust me, I do believe that you went through a lot, just as my Little One went through for me. I am just so sorry that these people that you went to talk to did not believe you. I believe that they did a grave injustice to you and I hope that one day, your able to get a dialogue together for Lucy's T so that she can hear your story and tell you that she is accepting and believing all those horrid things that you went through for Lucy. I do believe that trust is earned, and when that trust is in place it is a wonderful thing. I do wish you all the best Julia, and I do hope that one day your able to talk to Lucy's T about your experiences but only when your ready.

Alas

Hey, Julia. Skye here.

I sooooooooooooooo hear you! I was our "top layer" for a solid decade, and over and over again I watched people believe Dad, or simply pat my hand and say how it's over, I'm safe. No, I wasn't. Even living in my own apartment, no longer under their roof, Dad was still holding the reins. And I got so mad sometimes because nobody saw it. Even when I told! One T (the last one we saw before moving to Nashville) actually had the gall to suggest I was making stuff up.

So I hear you. It sucks so hard when over and over and over people don't hear you. And it kind of galls me that maybe two years into being Top Layer, Copper manages to connect with not only Teacher, but Aqua as well.

I got no answers for ya, Julia, but at least you're not the only one who has this to cope with. It sucks.

Catch ya later,

Skye

Hi Julia

I am so sorry that those doctors, therapists, social workers, nurses etc did not believe you when you were telling your story to them. I can empathize with you on that. When I was young, I told a little bit of what happened to me and I was not believed. It was bad growing up knowing that some person did bad things to you and you were so alone and you had to keep it secret. Eventually that caused me to be ill with depression and eventually PTSD.

Even now, I know a lot of people do not believe me when I say I was hurt as a child. I still am being hurt from people because of my fears stemming from this. It has caused me to go to therapist to therapist trying to resolve what happened to me was not my fault. I still believe that in part it was, but this is not about me, its about you.

I am happy that Lucy found such a wonderful T, I finally found the perfect T for me too and its nice that he is willing to go through all those things that I went through and hopefully I can heal from it.

Trust me, I do believe that you went through a lot, just as my Little One went through for me. I am just so sorry that these people that you went to talk to did not believe you. I believe that they did a grave injustice to you and I hope that one day, your able to get a dialogue together for Lucy's T so that she can hear your story and tell you that she is accepting and believing all those horrid things that you went through for Lucy. I do believe that trust is earned, and when that trust is in place it is a wonderful thing. I do wish you all the best Julia, and I do hope that one day your able to talk to Lucy's T about your experiences but only when your ready.

Alas

Thank you so much, Alas. I'm sorry no one listened to you or your Little One, either. I wish things had been different. I told Zooey that I feel sad because I don't understand why she believes Lucy, but nobody EVER believed me. She said she believes me. She says girls don't make up stories like that for attention. I want to trust her, but .....it's hard. Thank you for responding to me! It's so nice to talk to people

Hey, Julia. Skye here.

I sooooooooooooooo hear you! I was our "top layer" for a solid decade, and over and over again I watched people believe Dad, or simply pat my hand and say how it's over, I'm safe. No, I wasn't. Even living in my own apartment, no longer under their roof, Dad was still holding the reins. And I got so mad sometimes because nobody saw it. Even when I told! One T (the last one we saw before moving to Nashville) actually had the gall to suggest I was making stuff up.

So I hear you. It sucks so hard when over and over and over people don't hear you. And it kind of galls me that maybe two years into being Top Layer, Copper manages to connect with not only Teacher, but Aqua as well.

I got no answers for ya, Julia, but at least you're not the only one who has this to cope with. It sucks.

Catch ya later,

Skye

I hear ya. Everyone thought the parents were "wonderful" and "supportive" people who "really loved and cared about" me. HA! What a joke! They're very manipulative, so they convinced everyone I was crazy and locked me up. It sucked. I'm glad Lucy has Zooey, but sometimes it makes me feel bad....like there's something really wrong with me that no one would help me

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