I guess I could say I'm one of the lucky ones. I don't really suffer from horrible triggers in my day to day life. I experienced my first one for the first time in a really long time a few weeks ago. It was while I was with my boyfriend. We were having an intimate moment, and a freaked. Luckily he was really understanding and sweet when I started to freak out. It was one of those moments where I wished I could be normal. And I wish I knew what it was like to live a life where I had never been rapped. I'm trying to stay positive, because I have a lot to be thankful for but its hard sometimes when you have stuff like this weighing on your mind.