I've created this place, the safe place in his arms.
He makes me feel secure and strong again, like a rejuvenation source when my energy is down.
I suddenly realised today how incredibly unhealthy this is, and it saddens me that I can't continue to feel this way. It's unfair of me to rely on him to bring me back to happiness. He doesn't deserve the responsibility of keeping me happy. He deserves someone that is self sufficient enough to live her own fucking life without having a mental break down.
We have something really great, but i'm not mentally healthy enough to be in a co-dependent relationship.
I'm not strong enough to leave him, i love him too much to keep him.