I'm Skye, one of Copper's Insiders. I know the rules and I do my best to follow them. On to the blog.
I'm kind of speechless. Did today's class really happen???
I'll admit it. I kind of panicked when you walked in the door. For the first time since the "archetype" incident, I was stuck in the driver's seat...and Copper was nowhere to be found. I turned inward and shouted for her, but she didn't reply. I was on my own. Did I choose to take the risk? Or did exhaustion loosen my normally airtight grip on my mouth?
After the normal careful (for me) jockeying and joking at the beginning, I drew. (By the by, you are the second person in two days to compliment my drawings. What the hell? I'm no artist!!!) But after that picture, we talked a little bit. That's normal for art T sessions. But what in green blazes made me say aloud, to you that this week has been one long round of Alt Roulette????
I wanted to clap my hand over my mouth. I wanted to sink into the floor. I wanted to grab my backpack and run.
You just gave me more paper and asked "How do you get grounded? When it's crazy like that, what do you hold on to?"
I told you. You smiled, tapped the paper, and walked away.
With effort, I grabbed my pen before I gnawed one of your high-end colored pencils. It's hard for a word-person like me to translate language into images but I think I did a decent job of it. And after that one...we talked. We talked. Skye and Teacher talked.
Though you didn't say my name, (and it is possible you weren't sure what it is) you interacted with me. Not Copper. I know how you talk with her-- I've been close at hand every Wednesday for the past two years. I could tell that you knew that I am not her.
You laughed at my alt jokes. When I made a crack about being out of my mind...minds... you laughed with me. I'm pretty sure that the pronoun "we" got used far more than "I". You didn't even blink. When I complained about the perils of grocery shopping as a multiple, you understood. You even said how everybody has their own likes and dislikes in food, and shopping could be...challenging.
Teacher, I have no idea what brought about this change. Maybe I made the right kind of effort to open the door a bit more. Maybe you did. Maybe Aqua intervened again. Probably all of the above. I don't think I care.
I don't trust you like Copper does. Not yet. I don't hold grudges; it just takes me an incredibly long time to trust people. Push to shove, I'm still working on that with Aqua and she's known about the multiple thing a lot longer than you. I have spoken to her as myself way more than I have spoken to you.
When I trust, I do so slowly and with extreme caution. It is not often a second chance is given.
Frankly, I'm shocked I spoke so freely to you today. And I am beyond stunned that you responded to me.