Yupp
Entry posted by LovemyBostonTerrier ·
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That's what it was again. They left another eviction notice. I guess the first one wasn't good enough and they just wanted to see if my door would hold up to a good banging. I understand they want their money and I want to give it to them.
Also my period is two days late and im secretly not that upset about the idea of possibly being pregnant. It sounds terrible but at i can't help thinking what if I am and maybe then I can get a little help getting back on my feet. Then I would be forced not to drink and their would be resources. I even pictured the gym i used to go to how they have a day care section. I pictured how life would be like and that I would be nurturing something that was deserving of it.... and how maybe it would be a good thing if I did end up being pregnant. Then I feel guilty for thinking that.
Why would I want to bring a child into the mess of my life. How selfish is that to be happy about the idea of it. I can't even take care of myself. But I know if I had a little kick start of help I could be just as self sufficient as I am used to being. I don't know. I'm sure I will start my period any time now and this will all just be a bunch of what ifs.
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