I Sure Do Love Her Smile
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So today I got my cast off finally... Its a reminder that four weeks has passed. I have gone through 4 weeks of healing. We have gone through 4 weeks of healing... wow it is almost 5. It has been a long 4 weeks, but being able to use my hand is a reminder that time helps heal all wounds. It will never make them go away completely, but it truly does help. The past few days have been filled with so many smiles and excitement. Something we both thought was stolen was found. We took it back. I have never felt such intense love for anything before. It is sad what it took to feel it, but at the same time maybe it is the only way to truly know how much you love someone. You have to fight battles. You have to overcome obstacles. You have to be there next to each other on the other side. You have to prove your love. You develop a certain level of trust and love that cannot be obtained any other way. You are taken to a new level of existence.
Sure people might just say we are young kids in love and that we do not know what we are talking about, but people who say that can screw off... I do not care what any other person has to say because how can they know what me and my baby girl are feeling? Guess what? They can't. Sure it is arrogant to say and conceited, but in the last month I have grown wiser and smarter in the area of love and human connection than anyone else I know. If someone wants to tell me I do not know what I am talking about then I feel sorry for them because they have obviously never felt an emotional connection like I do with my sweet girl. If they did then they wouldn't say I am just young and being naive. I am not the best with words, but in this case it doesn't even matter because what I feel is indescribable with words. You can only know what I am talking about if you have felt it too. I can make her smile in the shittiest of days... there is something to be said for that... and being here I think we all understand we do not use that term lightly.
Just because the past few days have been filled with happiness and healing does not mean what happened is gone. It is not lost. It is not forgotten about. We are still able to talk about it. We are still able to break down. We are still able to be sad. Nothing has changed, but we have used the momentum of joy to keep us going. To inspire hope. To give us something to look forward to. To walk a path that has happiness and joy at the end. A path with a baby Tilden someday. A family. The pain is not forgotten... instead it is used to make us in the fighters we love. To become each others rock. To be there forever and ever... and then some (;
Yes 4 weeks have passed by... Her smile was there each day to make it easier... It has been a long and scary 4 weeks... But we are closer than we have ever been... We are fighting this fight. Want to know the really scary part? We are winning... and the feeling is unimaginable... We have all felt it before even if it is ever so slightly... you know how I know? Because you are here reading this right now. I know it is scary, but we are doing it! I love her cute, beautiful, shy, giggly smile... It makes my day each and every time she smiles.
I have a secret...
I love you nikki <3
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