Today was semi busy. I started to get flustered because I needed to finish fixing the wall before my apartment inspections. I punched the wall and broke my hand - which is a story for another day. It was enough of a pain to fix with one hand but it had to be done. I took a paint chip to lowes to get it matched, but it wasn't big enough so I had to go home and cut another piece from the wall - only making the problem worse. My apartment was a wreck in general and my bathroom was covered in a layer of white dust that needed to be cleaned before the inspection. I was told that my building would be inspected either today or early tomorrow, so I was stressing out... Everything else kept running through my head which made each little thing sent my stress levels even higher. I realize these are all silly little problems, but I just wanted to fall to the ground and cry.

*ding ding* my special ringtone I have set for when my girl texts me goes off. A smile took over my face before I even read the text. It was like flipping a switch. All of my cares went away. It truly amazes me what an "I love you!!" can do, I smiled and took a deep breath. I knew that it was going to be all okay and now I had her company. She always makes it better even when she doesn't try. I was able to get the right paint and although the wall looks pretty terrible it will hopefully pass the inspection tomorrow morning. I had one of more productive days, but I think that is because I had to.

I cooked myself some dinner and cleaned the kitchen. I felt like a true professional chef all I was missing my chef's hat. My apartment is cleaner than it has been in the past couple weeks. I think tomorrow will be a laundry day.

We just need to breath. We take each moment as it comes and try to deal with it in the best way we know how. We just need to stop and take a deep breath and let the frustration fall off of us. We are better than it. We can overcome it even if it does require the help of a loved one. We don't need to let the little things make our problems worse.

In the end we are still here and we are still alive. We are worthy of the happiness and love we bring to each other, so let us all try and enjoy it. I challenge you to enjoy it.

I have a secret...

I love you nikki <3