This is my first blog and I need to get myself back in control. A good friend triggered me last week, he has no idea that he had. I didn't realise that it would trigger me but it did. Now I'm anxious all the time! I can't calm down. I'm remembering things from my ex that I don't want to. I just want it to go away. My ex-husband did this over 20 years ago. I kept it put away until this past summer, then I had a semi breakdown but I put it away again. Now this, it triggered me so bad. I can't put it away. My friend is upset because he hurt me by triggering me. I need to make this right again. I need to put it away until I can deal with it. I'm having nightmares, things are scaring me that never did before, I'm angry and can't stop myself!!! (I'm lashing out not physically) I want to push my friend away but he never leaves. He stays not matter what I say or do. I don't like hurting him but I can't help it. Can anyone offer advise?