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i messed up

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i had a few drinks the other night and broke my two week streak. im disappointed in myself. and i can always feel the judgement of my roommate if i take cbd capsules or gummies to sleep. i have therapy for the first time in two years tomorrow and im nervous. lately i have been feeling sick and anxious. like i get so nauseous from being anxious i feel the bile at the back of my throat. i met a girl and she made me realize im into girls but then i found out she went to the frat and knew the guy  who assaulted me, i no longer want anything to do with her, but i feel bad because she doesnt know. i told her to be careful around him though and i have been distancing myself from her. i also saw my assaulter yesterday. i couldnt breathe but i couldnt seem to cry and i really wanted to. i felt so sick. 

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behindthesehazeleyes

Hugs, if ok?
 

I had classes with the person who assaulted me. It was horrible. I know how you are feeling. It was 15 yrs ago and I still remember how out of touch and angry and sick I felt. *safe hugs*

I am here for you if you ever need to talk through it or just have someone sit with you and know you aren’t alone.

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20 hours ago, behindthesehazeleyes said:

Hugs, if ok?
 

I had classes with the person who assaulted me. It was horrible. I know how you are feeling. It was 15 yrs ago and I still remember how out of touch and angry and sick I felt. *safe hugs*

I am here for you if you ever need to talk through it or just have someone sit with you and know you aren’t alone.

yes please. i accept safe hugs. Sometimes it really feels like it but i know im not alone. i wouldnt mind if you sat with me. thank you so much

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