This has got to be the hundredth time I’ve started this blog. I just don’t know what to say.
I want to write, but I don’t know what to say. It feels like nothing is happening while at the same time, everything is happening. I’m in distress. I’m crying a lot – and I mean a LOT. I’m angry. I’m hurt. But I don’t know how to put any of this on paper and get it out of my head.
Everything is wrong. Everything feels so insignificant. I can’t even write because it doesn’t feel safe. Therapy doesn’t feel safe. Nothing feels right. I feel like I’m living in absolute chaos and no one can help me.
I just want to disappear.