They say God is real
They say he is alive
But really floating above
Saying everything is alright
Saying that he has a plan
For each and one of us
Saying he is the protector
And the father to all of us
But let me ask a question
Like… where has he been
Wasn't here during past years
Or even when I was a kid
Left me alone
Even though he knew
He knew the truth of everything
Yet gave no one a single clue
If he was beside me
During the entire time
Why didn't he stop him
Why did he stay on the side
Why didn't he protect me
Be the father, or the God
Instead, he was a bystander
He watched me cry as I was hurt
He watched me scream in agony
As it just got even worse
But he did nothing
He just let it all burst
He saw me all confused
At a loss of words
That I was unsure
Of what I was just told
He watched me move slowly
Cause he knew I was scared
Everything done and said
Was their choice, I'm aware
The entire time
I was flustered and scared
I was holding back tears
As I nod and stare
God, what on earth
You weren't even there
You watched in TX and NC
You saw it through thin air
Not protecting me or guarding me
Just staring on the side
He let him hurt me badly
Not once, but many times
Now why tell me
I'm supposed to believe in God
He was never there for me
Never to be my guard
He even hurt my family
He let my family be hurt
And I have these memories
That I can't just simply burn
They cause me pain and agony
I cry about every night
Sometimes I cut and bleed
Just to save me from dry eyes
But also as a punishment
Cause I didn't try to fight
I guess I blame myself
For all of those abusive times
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