June 28th 2020, 5:55pm
Still mad. Yesterday I had a deep thought that I never wanted to touch anything to experience it again. I decided that I would be able to accomplish anything I would be able to simply just by observing it.
The account I created today on After Silence has already been approved and I can now use it to share my experiences. I was reading through the forum all day. Now, I’m looking forward to this community for their support in the near future.
I have an alarm set for 8:30 tomorrow morning, because I meet on zoom with Dr A at 9:00. I missed the appointment I scheduled two weeks ago because we lost internet over here that day.
I self-harmed and I want to switch medications. Suicidal thoughts are a side effect. Planning on telling this to Dr A because in the original appointment request I said “mental health screening.” I feel like I am close to becoming completely mute.
Today I cried really hard to Griff. I also need to get counseling ASAP.
Dabs and beer and a dinner with my mom and Griff keep me afloat. Still mad though.