Well, I had a feeling this day was going to come. I have been tryiing to complete a rigorous grad school program for some time now. My struggles with trauma have been interfering with my performance in school. This week it caught up with me, and after finding out i failed a course I finally decided to take a medical leave of absence. I won't go back to school until next fall. Weirdly I feel an overwhelming sense of relief. Trying to run on empty dealing with trauma, family issues, and grad school was becoming exhausting. I plan to take this time to go to therapy more often and get my meds fixed. I never took a step back in my life to do something like this. As a part of getting healthy I want to start going to the gym again. I'd like to get a job related to my field.
Most importantly, I want to take time to rediscover the little things in life that make me happy. I want to take time to truly feed my soul and do some self discovery. As a part of that, I want to find a sense of community. The area i moved into is quite conservative and I never took the time to try to seek out any LGBT support systems. Branching out and meeting new people is important to me.
Despite my initial feelings of disappointment in myself and mini meltdown over finances, I have decided that I need to see this as an opportunity and not a failure. Take it as a blessing in disguise.