I was abused by my dad from about age 6 to 15.
...my brother, as a young kid he would experiment on me, then sexual abuse from around age 12 to 16.
...my dads girlfriends two brothers took pictures of me and abused me. I can't remember how old I was, but somewhere between 4-6th grade.
...my uncle - a couple of hand full of times around age 12
...my cousin made out with me, touched me/made me touch him and almost raped me
...when I was 14 I had an affair with my best friend's dad for a summer, he was about 32 *see blog "Where is the Line"
There was one of my mom's boyfriends, who I feel may have sexually abused me as well. But I have blocked a lot of his abuse towards me. I have memories of all the abuse he inflicted on others: beating my mom up, beating my brother, him beating the dog and making us watch and kill the rabbits we had. I know that he beat me as well, but I don't have the image recall on my abuse. I do remember being terrified of him, especially at the dinner table and when he was drinking beer and watching football. I do have one quick image of him with me in the bedroom, but the image disappears before I can even get a glimpse of it. We lived with him for maybe 6 months when I was 5. When my mom finally left him, she hitch hiked to Colorado from Nebraska with my brother and I.
As a teenager/adult, I've sex with many people I would not have, if it weren't for my abuse and conditioning. Some 'boyfriends', some acquaintances , and one, I didn't even know his name. If I said no a number of times, and they persisted, I would just let them do what they wanted to me. What I wanted didn't matter. If they wanted it, they were going to get it. I could give it to them or they could take it. Better to submit than to be raped....