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Still waiting so I surrender

aperson

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Another week has come and gone and I still know nothing. I called the dr office 3 times. The first time, the dr called and left a message. Since I was working I couldnt answer. She apologized and said she was out for the rest of the day but to call and tell them if ok to leave results on a message. I call back and then nothing. I waited until Monday to call again. The nurse tells me she is out until Tuesday and will leave a message for her. I tell her I am a bit anxious about it. She says that considering the dr isnt calling urgently and she hasnt given her a head's up that something is wrong they are probably ok.

Here we are on Wednesday and still nothing. So for my sanity, I am going to say the results are ok and think only of the 2 options I have to make. I cant keep stressing and waiting for the phone to ring. Or checking my email every 5 mins like a basket case.  If she calls, fine. If she doesnt fine. I will worry about it more if I have additional symptoms. Going to another dr is beyond what I am capable of at this moment. It took me weeks to choose her. It would be weeks to research another. I just dont have the energy to do that.

Dont get me wrong, her bedside manner is great and she has been very underdtanding. She doesnt talk down to me or try to shame me. Until this, she has been great. Sometimes I think dr and most service professionals should be put in their client's position. Maybe then they would understand better. Maybe they will get the anxiety that we feel waiting on info about our care that only they have. Sometimes holding the answer to life or death. 

So today is the last day I will spend allowing these results to determine my life. Well....I am going to try very hard to make today the last day.



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Well done you for trying to take back some control.  The 'waiting' game is horrid isn't it.  I try to tell myself I will find out soon, no matter what they are they aren't going to change between now and when I get told, if they were really bad then I would have heard straight away.  I tell myself not to worry about things I dont know but the element of not knowing is what makes you worry isn't it. its a very hard situation to cope with.  I hope that you are given the results soon so that you can have peace of mind of knowing and can then focus on what you need to do next.

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