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Memories from the 1st farm

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Our first farm wasn't very big it was only about 8 acres .  there was a creek running through it and a couple acres of trees , for child as young as I was seem like a forest . 

This is where I have the clearest memories of the "Games". 

I remember being in my sisters room , all three of us naked on her bed .  We wouldn't have been very old , I believe I was in fourth grade , she was 2.5 years older.. I have a vivid memory of her laying on her back with her legs spread and us using our hands to rub each other . And rubbing up against each other. This is when she said the thing about us peeing in her.It was very bright so I think the curtains were open. Again I think she started playing with us so E could watch.

The creek that ran though the farm had cut a ravine , it wasn't very deep , but the sides were above our heads. I remember the three of us going out there , and her saying that we could hypnotize her and she do anything we wanted . I remember all three of us naked down there , playing with each other and rubbing against each other . The first vagina I kissed with my sisters , and the first female who took my penis in her mouth was my sister . And yes me and my brother also played with each other . I think we moved the games outside so E  could get a clearer view.

 Later on we built a lean to  out of  brush , I believe the games continued in there even though I have no clear memory of it. 

We couldn't see out but if someone wanted to they could see in. With out us knowing they were there.

 I remember I found an abandoned animal den, I would worm my way in to hide. I have no idea what animal made it but it was large enough for a 4th grader. It was a dank smelly nasty borrow in a pile of dead trees and brush. But nobody know where I was.

 There was a family that lived next to us that also had kids about our age . They would come over and play and then one day they didn't anymore . They were very religious.  I have the suspicion that J tried to include the older daughter in the games and the parents found out and forbid them to come over . I just have this fuzzy picture of two naked girls in that lean too . I remember being told that we hated the mother and father.  That they were religious freaks and we needed to stay away from them . 

 Again we were highly sexualized for children of that age . Me and my brother had G.I. Joe's and my sister had barbies. We would play G.I. Joe on liberty with them where we have the dolls do sex acts.

 Like I said this was the early 70s , media wasn't as openly sexual then as it is now . So we got these ideas from what was being done to us . 

 I don't think we were there very long , long enough to grow and  bale hay. But then I'm not sure, I only remember the summer there . I remember loading the steers and pigs on to a truck to take them to the slaughterhouse . That may have been while we were moving to the second farm .  I remember E being abusive and violent because we weren't doing it right . 

 

this is all took place in the northern Midwest, so there would of been snow and cold. I don't remember winters , only flashes.

 As is my habit when confronted with a problem , I do research  . Let's collect as much information as possible about the problem we're trying to solve and see how we can apply it to the problem .

 It appears that not only was I trauma bonded to E, I also have trauma amnesia .  I may never fully recover the memories of the abuse . It may only be vague impressions, suspicions and just brief flashes. 

 

 

 

 

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