My Life

You are not alone in how you feel. That sums up how I feel exactly. But....we need to keep going...because people love us.

Remember you are NOT alone. 

Keep posting, keep posting....be ok. 

I (we) will listen and understand. There are lots of people who are genuine. xxx

Message and post me anytime.

I am so sorry you are feeling this way. May I ask if you are on medication? I say this because I was there and my doctor changed my meds and I am feeling better now. I wonder if you could get some relief that way. I also don't know how you feel about therapy, but it has been a lifesaver for me. I go weekly. 

Please don't ever be afraid to reach out for help when you need it. 1-800-656-4673 is for RAINN, and there is 1-800-273-8255 to talk to someone when you are feeling suicidal. These are available 24/7. We are here, too. 

For me it helps to remember if all good things come to an end, So do all Bad things come to an end. I know it's easy said than to do but I say often to myself and it helps me.

I just trying to start, but nothing coming out. It is so hard to talk about myself. I hate it. But got to try.

All of this happened so many years ago. Some of it I was a little girl  some I was a you women. Some I was married,

But all is like jammed in me and its hard to talk about. It problem is not as bad as a lot of you. 

I was 5 when my grand father used to come into the bathroom where my twin sister and I had the touching done. I don't need to say more.

When I told my mother she said, your grand father just wants to play with you. So from that day on I always  kept everything to myself.

It seems I might have come to the conclusion very young.

I was molested more than my turn but different people through the ears.. It seems I was a target for that. Will be back another day.

I had been sent to Hospital under observation, because of my Suicide attempt foiled  when I was in my early 20's. they kept me only 48 hours

but a 48 hours I could never forget. On that last day there a so called Psychiatric Dr. decided he wanted to test me to see if I was ok. The was to get in back of me a grab with is 2 hands and molested me by grouping me. I sounded very normal and not like a patient and noticed I was aware of what he was doing and signed my release. I kept this to myself for  at least till a was 60 years old. I am a 70 year old women that still feels disgusted with anyone who touches me, weather it be y hand, my arm leg any where, wish exception my Husband, Thank God for him in my life. I will go on with my abuses. I was raped by my first husband that made me feel dead inside of me and those feeling I steel remember them so well. there are other times on the job sexual harassments where I reported it and lost my job. other times married men that I thought were friends groped me. I truest no man. except my second husband. I wish blessed with him. I actually I am glad I did this right now. I can not believe how it all just flowed out. thank you.

I am new to this site but when I read your post here, I felt like you were reading my mind. I don't see the point either...except it would damage my daughter. How can I inflict hurt on someone else? I hate this...I really do and right now I am totally consumed in a depressive state that I can't function. That hurts my family too. 

A no-win situation...