Wow, this week has been a rollercoaster. The combination of 3 days of pure anxiety after my mom went into the hospital, starting new classes, seeing old friends and making new ones, I am exhausted. Luckily, I'm feeling very in control of everything right now. I am managing my time fairly well and preparing myself for balance in the future. I know it can't always be this relaxed, but I'm finally feeling some calm after a crazy storm of a week. Libra is coming to visit this weekend, and I think I'll know where we stand by the time he leaves. I hope it works out. Hoping for the best, expecting the worst.
I started a fitness class which I am actually extremely nervous about. I'm not in shape, although I'm also still rather small in size. I'm not good at athletics or exercise and it's going to be a challenge, but hopefully, it'll help my anxiety and confidence a little bit. My goal for that class is to gain confidence when I work out so I don't feel as embarrassed when I go to the gym by myself or in public.
I've also been trying to be mindful of my diet, which has been fluctuating while getting used to this schedule. I feel okay about my body right now, but I know if I keep eating poorly I won't stay happy about it.
I also feel like I'm not very good at this blogging thing, haha. I never know what to say and just end up rambling about things that don't really matter. I'll figure it out eventually.
"Your boldness stands alone among the wreck"
-Little Lion Man/Mumford and Sons