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Dakota101916

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3 years ago on July 4th was the night my world got turned upside down. My boyfriend was living in South Carolina at the time and he had asked his best friend to look out for me. We went to a 4th of July party and we’re having so much fun. His friend and I left with some other friends and stayed he night at one of our friends houses. I passed out drunk and woke up to my boyfriend at the times best friend having sex with me. I didn’t know what to do so I pretended I was still asleep. I woke up in the morning left and started balling my eyes out. I told my now ex boyfriend what happened. He messaged his best friend after I told him. His best friend told him I wanted it and that it wasn’t his fault. I told my boyfriend he was lying but he told me that he could only forgive me if I admitted my fault. At the time I was weak so after hours of denying it I finally said it was my fault so that he wouldn’t leave me. He “forgave” me yet whenever we would fight he would throw it in my face. Ever since that day I’ve felt so weak for giving in and saying it was my fault that he r*aped me. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to heal from what he did to me.

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Free2Fly

Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

im so sorry he gave you that dilemma, it's not your fault & it sounds like his friend is a horrible person and friend.

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Dakota101916

I reached out to him the other day. I just wanted him to understand the pain he caused me. That he’s the reason I’ve almost committed suicide twice. That he’s the cause of my diagnosed PTSD. He said he’s sorry I feel that way but that it was both of our faults and that he loves me. I hated hearing him say he loved me because that’s not love...

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7 hours ago, Dakota101916 said:

I reached out to him the other day. I just wanted him to understand the pain he caused me. That he’s the reason I’ve almost committed suicide twice. That he’s the cause of my diagnosed PTSD. He said he’s sorry I feel that way but that it was both of our faults and that he loves me. I hated hearing him say he loved me because that’s not love...

Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

yeah :( he is very wrong to blame u and if he doesn't believe you then he's now worth your time thinking about friend.

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