not good enough not strong enough 

am I enough ?

I'm barley holding on its tough 

helpless...feeling so lost .. looking at my arms at all the scars it makes me feel gray... panic attacks are driving me insane

I constantly feel gray like I can feel it all leaving me cause my heart has not stop hurting since july11,2018 like literal pain every time I think about anything you did an feel sick not being able to keep anything down...