I can't sleep. I can never sleep. All summer I haven't been able to sleep. This could be either due to a certain "anniversary" or because my sister is always around while I'm trying to sleep. I can't sleep with someone awake around me. I don't know why.
I also can't sleep without backround noise. And I have to be hugging something. A blanket, a pillow. Doesn't matter. I always need a fan. Even in the winter I turn it on so it's really cold.
On nights where I'm hot I have nightmares again. Sometimes they happen even when I'm comfortable. I always get anxious at night. It usually takes weed or sleeping pills to knock me out.
The other day I stayed up till 8 AM and slept through the whole day till 3 PM. I feel like I miss out on so much but without school I don't have much to keep my sleeping patterns in check.
I don't know what I'm writing about this. Probably because I'm tired and high. I don't know.
This is really stupid.