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Week 3

aperson

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This is week 3 of training and I am still clueless I feel. Still a lot I just dont get. It just doesnt make sense yet. Still have 9 weeks to go. The 2nd biggest change is the free time I have. No more working late nights, early calls, interviews, reports, babysitting grown adults. No more worrying how to keep the account afloat and trying to convince people to stay when the company is showing them they dont matter. I have my evenings free. I can just relax. But that would be too easy lol. I have too much time now. I still stay awake until 2am. 

I can say a lot of the stress has been relieved. I am all for a challenge but this challenge was set to fail from the start. So I have started crocheting again. Using that to occupy some time. Catching up on Netflix. Their original films are awesome. I have plenty of time to study but havent brought myself to do it. Reading about stocks and bonds, life insurance, taxes and retirement accounts is boring as h%$%. I am trying to be sure to not allow myself to slip so easily into my own mind and negative thoughts of myself or others. I was there for a few days. Realized where I was headed and just decided to push past it. It sounds like avoidance but just trying to stay out of dark and unsafe places mentally. One thing we do in training daily is to name 2 things that went well for the day. To keep away from everything the others say has been a challenge. There are 14 people including the trainer and me. 12 of then say daily how the training is starting to make sense every day. It is now day 13. I try to stay away from that. Choosing anything I can. It is beneficial doing this brcause I have to think of something good that day. That is a new challenge. I have resorted to a daily countdown to friday lol.

But so far it's ok. I am pushing through and slowly learning. Just a couple more major steps to get past. I can relax more after that I think. Hmmmm maybe my hair will grow back now. That would make it worth it!



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