O feel so tired and so overwhelmed like I don’t know what to do anymore I know I’ve said it before but this feeling keeps getting stronger and stronger and every day gets harder and harder my mom keeps calling and messaging me and she keeps saying sorry. To be honest FUCK her appoligy I don’t want her to appoligize!! I’m so tired of everyone saying how all these people need me! FUCK MAN WHAT ABOUT ME!! What about what I need. To be honest I don’t even know what I need. I feel like I’m falling off a very y’all Clift but falling so slowly so I can feel all these stupid emotions and it sucks really bad. I’m tired of fighting I’m tired of always being the strong person I’m tired of having to take care of everyone else cause at the end of the day who is gonna take care of me?? NOBODY!!! I’ll still be in the same boat but just forced to take every minute of my life. I know I’m in a really rough patch right now and what I want to happen isn’t going to happen its just a figment of my imagination. It’s just gonna cause more problems then what I have already created. I hate so many people. I hate myself for feeling so afraid all the time!! It’s FUCKING ANNOYING!!!!!