kungfu's Blog

What is happening to you, you didn't ask for and you wish it would just go away. Wish I could tell you it does go away, but that would be false. Have you sought the help of a good therapist? You need to talk to someone who can help you sort through the heaps and heaps of emotional "garbage" that attaches itself to the minds of those that experience sexual abuse.

It's as if the mind and emotions are invaded by "demons" that you did not invite, and they will try to kill your spirit and eventually your physical/mental person if left unchecked, in the form of lost energy and depletion of joy, hope and well being. It has been over 45 years for me since the first incident (that I can recall), so as you can tell, there is nothing "stupid" about what you are feeling, but it's unfortunately, the norm.

I sure do wish you peace, but I am afraid it will not come without some professional intervention. I have been there, and may need to get back there very soon myself as things have surfaced that I am unable to get past without some guidance.

Good luck to you...and God bless you.