I have been eating chicken. A WHOLE lot of chicken. Every. Single. Day. Oh, and eggs. Lots of eggs. You'd think the eggs were being laid by the chickens I'm eating. A typical morning for me is something like this: Get up. Go through the pantry. End up skipping breakfast. (I know, it's not recommended but I do it because what else is there to eat but eggs!?) Oh, and do you know how many points is in a wee cup of cereal and also for the milk you'll put into the bowl??? I don't think I have enough points in a day to waste them before noon!
Sometimes I'll take a nap in the morning so that I don't have to actually put anything into my stomach until lunch time. By then, I'm noticeably 'hangry.'
After going through the pantry for the second time on any given day around noon (because, really, you never know, the Food Fairy SOMETIMES puts something tempting in there while I'm napping) it's usually an egg salad sandwich that I end up making myself and eating.
I take teeny-tiny bites out of that sandwich; even though by now I'm hungry enough to be done with that meal in sixty seconds flat. I savor every bite - because I'm telling myself that even though I'm still going to be hungry after my lunch, I have enough 'points' left to have a nice dinner that will satisfy. I can have some rice, I can have pasta, of course, there's almost ALWAYS something to do with chicken for dinner.
So, this is the problem I'm running into, now.
Chicken, particularly white meat, is considered a "free" food. I can stuff my face with as much lean chicken as I want, but of course, have to allow for the points used in order to prepare it. (For example, if you sauté it in oil, you have to count the point for the oil, if you marinate it in some sort of sauce, you count the sauce's points. But the eggs and the chicken, providing it's white meat, boneless and skinless, are both free proteins!)
What the hell do I do when I get tired of chicken...and eggs!? I'm not thinking eating this many eggs is in any way good for my cholesterol! But I'm quickly approaching the point where I want to swear off both of these for a while. There's only so many things you can do with eggs (including teaching myself to effectively make a frittata) and the chicken is rapidly becoming something I'm liking less and less.
I want something different, SO badly. I've told myself that I'll allow myself a red meat one night a week, as a treat. I have a frozen steak in the freezer for sometime this week. I'm just afraid of falling off that damn wagon that I've spent the last month trying to stay atop. It was recently the Chinese New Year - I would have LOVED to ring in the year of the Dog with some fine Asian cuisine, but the amount of MSG used in their (SO SO tasty) dishes is not going to agree with me when the time comes to step onto (and likely cuss out) the scale on Wednesday.
Yeah. I'm not really expecting an answer to this little outburst; just being able to sit here and vent is sometimes helpful. Not just about the things I can't change, because there are plenty of those! But about these little things that I know I CAN change with a little on-screen thinking aloud. I mean, I'm sitting here saying, "Jesus, Capulet, no one told you to go on a diet, no one wants to hear you talk about food woes!" But at the same time, I'm asking myself...what AM I going to do about it? If it's not food I have to complain about, it's something else. Every single one of us has something to deal with. Something that pisses them off on a daily basis. Something that makes them question, something that makes them angry. Talking about things, even if I'm not doing it verbally, helps me to put into perspective what I'm feeling and I thank you all for listening, if you've gotten this far. THAT helps.
So, anyway....a little while ago, I just got back inside from hangry-shoveling...we had about two inches of snow last night. The daughter and son have gone back to their father's house and J is not home. So the big-ass driveway we have got a walloping with the shovel and I have to properly thank the sun for shining today, it made the job a whole lot easier. So...at least I got some exercise in the process. My back will probably be screaming at me in the morning, regardless.
And, while I was getting my shoveling done, I made myself a little proposition for tonight's dinner.
Tonight, I'm making chicken (what a surprise!!!!) but am making BBQ chicken wings. This is not a 'free' meal as the wings have skin and bones but it's a small treat for yours truly considering the 'same ol,' is getting extremely tiresome. My better half is on a double shift. And so, that's my plan and my reward to myself. Chicken wings and maybe a side salad. Plus, they'll be baked in the oven and not fried so they won't kill the diet.
As a parting note, if anyone would like to come and prepare unique meals for me and listen to me whine and complain, I'll repay the kindness with hugs and a lifetime's worth of gratitude. Must know how to be creative with chicken and must be skillful at omelette-making. I also have a spare bedroom when Oompa's not here. A full collection of Blu-rays. What I don't have though, is junk food. You'll have to bring your own.
Furthermore, feel free to send me any chicken breast recipes - even if there's a lot of "no no" foods (butter, oils, etc) used, I can perhaps modify them some with their diet-friendly counterparts.
I'm having my water now (that's yet another thing - need to come up with more interesting things to drink. I haven't had more than one or two soda cans in the last week and the caffeine headaches are becoming more frequent!) and relaxing before it's time to prep the wings.
Hope everyone's Sunday is going well. Love to all of you beautiful people! And thank you. It means a great deal to know that y'all are out there.