I deserved everything
Its obliterating when you run into your rapists multiple times a day. I'm not strong enough to not feel ashamed. To not get scared and avoid eye contact. To not have anyone tell me I'm worthy of being loved. That I'm not used trash. I'm not a white or a sl*t who doesn't know how to keep her legs closed. I'm not nasty or a disease. To have someone be there for me. Its all I've ever wanted.