I have read so much on this site and I can feel so much of the pain being expressed by so many of the victims and survivors. It has made me angry and I have a new calm that has come to me making it easier to live with the fact that my rapist will be out of prison in less than a month. I feel nothing, and I am sure that he will find me right where he found me the first time, skating on the path. This time I will be ready and prepared. I will not be a victim any longer with a sad story. I will be ready and this time it will go very differently, this is the only thing that brings me peace and allows me to feel happy and sleep. I know it's wrong to say, but the courts had their chance and now I will have mine. His release from prison will give me the chance to set things right and ensure that he never beats and rapes someone again.