So its been a while since I've posted on here and honestly I think its because I wanted to pretended like my life is all better and things are perfect when that isn't the case at all. So about a year ago I met an amazing man and he has a wonderful daughter then 8 months later we are engaged and don't get me wrong I am as happy as I could ever be but I still feel like I'm not healed like a part of me is still missing and broken and I don't know how to fix that. I want to pretend like that night never happened and I have this wonderful life and this wonderful new beginning and I'm just not sure if that is the case... will I always be sad? will I always be broken a little? I have taken on a lot in the last year and all I want for myself is to BE HAPPY AGAIN.